It saddens me to hear about your sorrows. If you need to talk to someone you can PM me and I'll send you my phone number. I know we've never met each other personally, but I suspect we both have some of the same spiritual principles we live by. I really mean it too, 24/7 I would do what I could if you need help.
I have a bit of good news from this end. Last night (6-1-04) I successfully jumped through the last beaurocratic hoop and received unanimous approval from my county zoning board for a conditional use permit. This allows me to build a commercial structure (i.e. greenhouse) on my residential property. WEEEEEE. Let the insanity begin.