I have been through stages in time where I hate my reef. It sucks up time money and still looks like ****.
Then one day, out of nowhere, the mushrooms that had been just hanging out start to pop, or the RBTA that was quarter sized for a year suddenly doubles.
Lately my reef has been neglected while I build another tank, but last weekend it finally got more than just a WC, algae wipe and water test. That little bit of extra TLC had it looking really good last night. Not TOTM good, but better than usual. Hang in there and savor the small victories.
Remember too, that non-reefers don't see an ugly tank. They 'know' that reefs are 'hard to keep' and are amazed that you have such an awesome tank !