alten78
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Good afternoon all, been some time since ive been on these boards and i must say it feels good to be back reading up on things.
That said, unfortunately, several months ago I had a tank crash. Still have no idea what initially caused its gradual decline but i suspect maybe a fish or two died to start off the chain reaction. The tank was up for about 7 years or so, never really looked the way i wanted it to, swapping out different pieces here and there, but it was my passion and my life.
An olders and definitely not the greatest picture i could find or when it was starting to fill out:
The biggest and most unfortunate thing that happened several months ago at the same time of the tank crash was I found out the hard way that I am extremely allergic to corticosteroids. Never before had I experienced panic, anxiety, depression, and anything else that goes with it. It was as I got sicker so did the tank, almost at the exact same time. I watched helplessly as it slowly degraded to nothing but a forest of skeletons, one by one fish and inverts would "disappear". Depression, for those that have never experienced it (and I hope you never do) is a crazy thing, NOTHING mattered to me at the time, mentally Im yelling at myself to do something, to save the passion i once had that took years and alot of money and effort to build...but i was emotionally and physically damn near unable to tend to myself and my family let alone anything else.
Fast forward 5 months, with the help of my loving wife (who is clinically depressed so her understanding of what i was going through helped tremendously), family, and getting a right doctor im finally pulling out of this abyss and more importantly and the point of this long winded thread, the tank back together
We entertained a few times since then, i kept the lights off to try to mask the graveyard of death, and heard a few times "wow is that saltwater, that looks awesome" My response was :hmm4:, omg im crazier than i originally thought lol.
Finally was able to muster some ambition and emotion together as i started to feel better the only things that survived to this point was my pair of black os. clowns and a bangai cardinal. Ive had the clowns for as long as i had it initially setup so as im looking at them thinking, if they survived this and im still standing its time to get back on track. Tore down the entire setup, threw the sand and rock into a bin, painted the oad stand a glossy black, blue background changed to black, everything cleaned and back online.
Dont mind that funny rockwork, that did not come out how i wanted it to so it will be changed, and new mh bulbs are on the way.
I think this thread is more therapeutic for me than anything else, that I have to persevere and so will my passion...and to anyone else that wanted a very long read lol
Moral of my story, don't give up
That said, unfortunately, several months ago I had a tank crash. Still have no idea what initially caused its gradual decline but i suspect maybe a fish or two died to start off the chain reaction. The tank was up for about 7 years or so, never really looked the way i wanted it to, swapping out different pieces here and there, but it was my passion and my life.
An olders and definitely not the greatest picture i could find or when it was starting to fill out:
The biggest and most unfortunate thing that happened several months ago at the same time of the tank crash was I found out the hard way that I am extremely allergic to corticosteroids. Never before had I experienced panic, anxiety, depression, and anything else that goes with it. It was as I got sicker so did the tank, almost at the exact same time. I watched helplessly as it slowly degraded to nothing but a forest of skeletons, one by one fish and inverts would "disappear". Depression, for those that have never experienced it (and I hope you never do) is a crazy thing, NOTHING mattered to me at the time, mentally Im yelling at myself to do something, to save the passion i once had that took years and alot of money and effort to build...but i was emotionally and physically damn near unable to tend to myself and my family let alone anything else.
Fast forward 5 months, with the help of my loving wife (who is clinically depressed so her understanding of what i was going through helped tremendously), family, and getting a right doctor im finally pulling out of this abyss and more importantly and the point of this long winded thread, the tank back together
We entertained a few times since then, i kept the lights off to try to mask the graveyard of death, and heard a few times "wow is that saltwater, that looks awesome" My response was :hmm4:, omg im crazier than i originally thought lol.Finally was able to muster some ambition and emotion together as i started to feel better the only things that survived to this point was my pair of black os. clowns and a bangai cardinal. Ive had the clowns for as long as i had it initially setup so as im looking at them thinking, if they survived this and im still standing its time to get back on track. Tore down the entire setup, threw the sand and rock into a bin, painted the oad stand a glossy black, blue background changed to black, everything cleaned and back online.
Dont mind that funny rockwork, that did not come out how i wanted it to so it will be changed, and new mh bulbs are on the way.
I think this thread is more therapeutic for me than anything else, that I have to persevere and so will my passion...and to anyone else that wanted a very long read lol
Moral of my story, don't give up
