Whew! Yeah I can understand where your coming from. It definitely seems like this hobby can play hell on you. I haven't been in this nearly as long as many of you but can say that it definitely erodes it's fun factor away all on it's own. I'm personally at the point I need to go big or be satisfied and sell some stuff haha. I also have a bit more of investing to do for ease of pain and for the sake of simplicity. I do have a goal in mind though and plan on getting there. I hope you overcome the burdens of the hobby with a passion for the life that becomes fortitous at the expenses of patience, money, time and a devotion of seeing what is possible at the hands of a simple man, water, living creatures and a whole lotta love.
For a little laughter, my 8yr old wants a puppy for Christmas. :uhoh3: If only you could read the letter to Santa lol.